Mandarinalone, 38

Everyone always tells me I'm a great guy, but I might be too self-hating to believe it. I do know that I'm less than one in a million, that I'm quite unique and that is also what I'm looking for myself. I hold myself to high standards in many regards, I want to live life as best I can, and I guess I'm looking for someone similar. I have equally strong artistic and logical sides, but I haven't pigeon-holed myself in to overspecialization just yet, managing to be something of a jack of all trades and someone who can appreciate many complex things in life. In the end though, no one knows these things about me, and I doubt myself to boot. Not many people really get to know me the way I wish they did, but I feel as though thats because the people that surround me are somewhat underwhelming in a lot of ways. I meet so many closed minds and isolated spheres of experience, its hard to relate. I have passion in me, but its reserved for only the most deserving. I know without a shadow of a doubt that I have the ability to profoundly please the right person and bring satisfaction and contentment and joy to both of our lives. Its just been hard not settling for less, to the point of excluding myself from the mill of austere experiences and average involvements. All of this must raise many skeptical eyebrows, I'm sure, as if I haven't encountered that before. Thats fine by me, and to those whose deeper selves moves their curiosity, I say see for yourself then--its always fun to surprise people with honesty in these matters! One last quick note for specifics, I'm looking for a woman that is in touch with her emotions and isn't afraid to share them with me, even if I can't always do the same. I'm probably looking for a Scorpio or Cancer, but I don't bank too strongly on that. Someone to hike and travel with, someone as courageous as they are level-headed and intelligent. Someone who isn't phased by the prospect of moving to a foreign country, who likes the water and loves culture.